I admit it! I had that thought this very day.
Attempt at Treatment #2
I found out yesterday that I've been around someone who tested positive for Covid. So when I went in for my treatment, the first thing I did was counsel with my doctor. He counted the days since the exposure and weighed the risk. He felt like since I haven't had any symptoms yet and the fact that my levels were solid last week when we ran my blood tests, that the risk was pretty low. We decided to move forward. I felt comfortable with that and he seemed to as well.
I went ahead and got prepped for my treatment. First they took my blood sample to test my levels again. I had a nice visit with the nurse. She was so positive and personable. After she ran the tests, she came back and they showed that my levels were too low to do treatment today. So I visited some more with my doctor. He seemed a little surprised that the drop in my levels was as big as it was since most of the time a significant drop like that will show up in the first week. So I'll go back next week to see how the levels are doing. So I came home and was able to work the rest of the day. :) I had some meetings I was glad I could participate in!
"My Plan"
I like to have a plan. I waited until last week's blood tests to outline the plan so I could invite my family to be a part of the plan and I felt certain that I'd be able to execute the plan without a hitch. And here we are at pre-Treatment #2 and the plan is already changed.
As I have reflected throughout the day, I have had a couple of thoughts. Thought #1: Let God Prevail. Thought #2; The Lord's timing is different than my timing.
Let God Prevail
I have reflected on a talk given in General Conference by President Nelson in October 2020 called Let God Prevail where he talks about a Hebraic definition of Israel, which means "let God prevail."
Here are a couple of quotes from the talk that stand out.
"Are you willing to let God prevail in your life? Are you willing to let God be the most important influence in your life? Will you allow His words, His commandments, and His covenants to influence what you do each day? Will you allow His voice to take priority over any other? Are you willing to let whatever He needs you to do take precedence over every other ambition? Are you willing to have your will swallowed up in His?"
"...My dear brothers and sisters, as you choose to let God prevail in your lives, you will experience for yourselves that our God is “a God of miracles.”As a people, we are His covenant children, and we will be called by His name."
So I can be willing to let Him prevail and then watch for the miracles He will provide.
The Lord's Timing
In 2002, Elder Dallin H. Oaks gave a devotional address at BYU titled "Timing." In it he has some great quotes from especially Neal A Maxwell, so I'd recommend it as a good read (or listen). Here is one snippet that he used in the closing of his talk that I love.
"Do not rely on planning every event of your life—even every important event. Stand ready to accept the Lord’s planning and the agency of others in matters that inevitably affect you. Plan, of course, but fix your planning on personal commitments that will carry you through no matter what happens. Anchor your life to eternal principles, and act upon those principles whatever the circumstances and whatever the actions of others. Then you can await the Lord’s timing and be sure of the outcome in eternity."
There is purpose and there is a plan. I'm sure that this timing will unfold great things. We may need to adjust my treatment because of the effect on my body. So we will see now what next week brings. But until then, I'm going to enjoy one more week of feeling strong and enjoy the weather that is quite beautiful right now as spring turns into summer. The roses are in bloom as well as a lot of other flowers. It's a beautiful time of year when the days are long on both ends! May you all find gozo and belleza in your journey today!
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